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Sunday, June 29, 2014 12:14 am
Courage listen, ♥Courage. That's the very thing that I lack. The very thing that I wish I could learn. Something that I hope I would have. Courage, that's what I'll dream to have.
Saturday, June 14, 2014 10:04 pm
Scars listen, ♥
"Nobody said it was easy, no one ever said it would be this hard." - Cold Play
And as broken as I may be, I'm trying to pick up the pieces that were left behind. I'm trying to find meaning in the things I do. I'm trying to hold on to as much as I can, for now.
"I'm only human, and I crash and I break down." - Christina Perri
I know how I tend to walk away from people who place too much on my shoulders, whom I find a burden because I'm afraid of the responsibilities that I have to keep up with, who are not able to make me feel alive but instead suck all my energy from me.
I admit that I'm not a fantastic person, I don't have the best of personalities, I'm not friendly in any way. But I try my hardest, whenever possible, and I do my best. Not everyone might acknowledge the things I have done, but in any case, I try my utmost best before I decide to throw the towel. And honestly, that decision is harder than anything in this world.
I'm trying to let go of the past, to move on with life, to move away from the shadows of the past. But it's not easy, it really isn't. And I'm trying, each and every day, in any way possible. But I find myself crumbling, searching for answers like never before.
I think the worse feeling in the world, is to feel broken and yet, pretend that life is worth living. I think Snoopy's death affected me more than yours did. And trying to find meaning in life has become more difficult than it was before.
I've been trying means and ways to stop myself from overthinking by pilling myself with endless work and commitment, but it doesn't seem to be working.
1. Don't try to make sense of it.
'The truth is, even if there are answers - it doesn't matter.'
2. 'Strong' is overrated.
'Let the breakdowns happen.'
3. Give yourself time.
'Time doesn't heal the wounds completely, but it gets easier.'
- Kelcie Moseley
Labels: http://thoughtcatalog.com/kelcie-moseley/2013/12/5-truths-to-help-you-cope-with-loss/
Sunday, June 08, 2014 12:26 am
Memories listen, ♥
Memories can be such a scary thing.
Sometimes we hold onto memories that don't really matter and end up deceiving ourselves into believing that we would always remain the way we are. The lies we tell ourselves in order to get by from time to time somehow completes us, and makes us whole, especially when we are falling apart.
Memories can be beautiful, but it can also destroy us.
Sunday, June 01, 2014 12:45 am
Life listen, ♥
Sometimes, I don't even know how I'm feeling. It takes time for me to adjust to things and it takes time for me to adapt.
I've become such an expert at putting on a brave front and pretending that things are fine, that I buy into the idea myself.
I've broken down in my own space and time these few days, that it doesn't take much to tear off the mask that I'm wearing in order to get by.
These will come to an end, with time. My sorrow and unhappiness of now, will enable me to better myself in time to come.
Life's a never ending drama. What is it without pain? Although the pain of losing hurts more than anything.
God has his plans laid out. He wouldn't give me anything more than I can bear. I just have to trust that everything will fall into place, eventually, somehow.
And now, it's time to numb myself once again.
12:00 am
// listen, ♥ This very sense of emptiness and loneliness is eating into me. I miss you. |
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